For those of you who don’t know I applied to Law school and I hope to someday help people with mental health issues tackle their legal issues. In exactly one week and 3 days, I start Law school. I actually got in.
I feel weird about it though. Whatever happiness I felt was quickly destroyed by doubts creeping in. Can I do this? But I know this is just anxiety talking and it is not going to get the best of me this time.
Anxiety, you have been a monster by my side for too long. You have controlled every part of me for years. I know you will always be with me lurking in the shadows of my mind but I am going to fight back now. I am not going to take it lying down anymore.
To fight you I will complete one day at a time. These days will turn into weeks. Weeks into months and months into years. All that exists is today.
The other part of my life anxiety controls is my social life. If I don’t feel comfortable in the situation, which is a lot of the time, I turn bright red and become a blubbering fool. It is such a confidence killer for me and it constantly makes me feel bad about myself. To tackle this I have implemented a system of talking to at least one person outside of my house every day. Even if it is just “Hello, how are you?”. So if anyone wants to talk hit me up via email or on twitter (links in bio).
Finally, I finished a book called Limitless by Jim Kwik. It is about learning how to learn and looking at yourself with a positive mental attitude. Stop being the one to tell yourself that you can’t do things. Be your own cheerleader. Sounds corny as hell but a small positive change makes a huge difference. I can read this book. I can get this job I want.
“If not you then who, if not now then when?” — Hillel the Elder.
I am kind of obsessed with learning how to learn now. It is important because the more efficiently you learn, the faster you can learn and the less time you have to spend out of your day and the more you can fit in. As Jim Kwik puts it “The faster you can learn the faster you can earn”.
That is all from me, hope you are all doing well,